Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Uncrackable


My loyal readers, you will have to forgive the whining of this blog post, but my promise to be completely honest with you at all times dictates the tone.

This week, I am tired. I am so, so tired. I’m physically tired from lack of sleep, lots of schoolwork, and lots of waitressing. I’m emotionally tired, and I’m spiritually tired. All I want to do is curl and up and sleep through the entire day. There is a muscle in my left shoulder that begins to ache when I am stressed, for reasons unknown, and it’s been on fire for two days.

At times like these, when I’m busy with things like trying to arrange a trip to Africa, or trying to pay for school, or trying to make the plight of the ocelot seem interesting for a science project, I tend to bypass sleep and fun in an effort to finish all of my assignments and accomplish my goals. Some of you will remember or were there with me during my insanely busy junior year of high school, during which I slept through math class daily and spent my afternoons frantically hopping from one place to another, trying to meet all of my responsibilities. By the end of that year in high school, I cracked. I was broken. I was worn-out, exhausted, and empty. I had to quit some of my favorite activities because I knew I just couldn’t do it anymore. If I’m not careful, I could let the same thing happen again in college.

Something I am learning is that it is during these exact times that rest and relaxation are more necessary than ever. Now, more than ever, I need time with my friends, as they are the ones keeping me sane. Now, more than ever, I need time with God, as He is the one filling my soul with strength. Now, more than ever, I need to curl up with a good book or take a nap, because if I don’t I’ll reach that point of stress that can only lead to inefficiency and frustration. If I don’t, I’ll crack.

I’m thankful for my friends, who make me laugh and who encourage me daily. I’m thankful for the freedom and ability to spend time with God, who comforts my heart and grants me endurance. I’m thankful for the heater in our dorm room, for Graham Greene, for a comfortable bed.

Chances are, I will be spending a few late nights at the library over the next few days, but that’s okay, because I’m not going to let stress and exhaustion overcome me. I’m going to have a little fun this week, too. I’m going to read, and laugh, and dance to Taylor Swift, and enjoy the Christmas decorations around campus. Just you watch.

I am not going to crack.

3 comments:

  1. Look, she put a picture in a blog post!

    Sounds like you've got your priorities right. Good thing, we don't need a cracked Sarah!

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  2. Sometimes we write the same things, and I giggle a little bit. ^_^

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  3. Philippians 4:13 :)
    ~Me

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