Thursday, January 26, 2012

Sunbeams and Silence

Hello there. Long time, no see. My sincerest apologies to those of you who have returned to this blog again and again looking for updates. I would make excuses about busyness, or getting my wisdom teeth taken out, or spending time with family and friends over the Christmas break, but I really don’t have any good ones. I’ve just been lazy. I will try to write more frequently in the future.

However, just because I haven’t been posting doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking. I’ve got all sorts of things to talk about – comments jotted onto napkins or scribbled on post-it notes and stuck on my bulletin board. I’ve got rants and raves and all sorts of thoughts to discuss with you, and you’ll get to see them all, so don’t worry. But now is not a time for soapboxes or opinions. It isn’t a time for flowery writing or overextended metaphors. At this moment, I am sprawled on the steps at the base of ACU’s Tower of Light (a large obelisk structure that can be seen for miles around the campus, especially when it's lit at night.) I am enjoying the warm sun and the cool breeze after several days of rainy, windy weather and freezing mornings. Today is my busiest day of the week this semester, and yet somehow I ended up with an hour of free time to myself.

Rarely at school do I have the opportunity to be on my own. I have a fantastic circle of friends, with whom I live, eat, work, play, read, talk, and rest all day long. But these rare moments of silence and calm are also vital to my sanity. Right now, it’s just me, you, and God, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I love this school. I love these people. I love this spot, and this sun. I even love this tired, bedraggled, worn-out city of Abilene. If I can’t be in Kazembe, then this is where I belong, right here, right now.

You’ll hear more from me over the next few weeks. I’ll whine, complain, praise, exalt, question, philosophize, argue and crack jokes that aren’t actually very funny. I’ll try to make you laugh and some of you may cry, and I’ll try my hardest to make you think, if I can. But for now, don’t do any of those things. Just take a moment to sit and relax and enjoy the silence (even if it is interrupted periodically by train horns and strange, unidentifiable noises coming from the Bean.) Find peace in the knowledge that you are right where you are supposed to be at this moment, and if things feel dark and you can’t see the sun right now – it will be okay. I promise.

The sun always feels warmer after the rain.

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